Tuesday, 2 February 2010
Wednesday, 15 July 2009
All My Life I Wish I Broke Mirrors Instead of Promises
Its been a while since I wrote a blog so I decided to do one now as my heads in a bit of a pickle. Writing it down usually clears the air!
I have no idea where to start with this blog so i guess ill just spit it out. (i love how ive stopped using capitals already).
The last few weeks have been ridiculous. My band split up was my main concern. I lost my best friend and I really am not sure why. When you spend so much time with one person it gets a little tedious and it wares you out. Because you spend so much time with that person you stop seeing all the good points and start focusing on the bad points. A band is like a family or a girlfriend, boyfriend, relationship, marriage etc. Its one big overaly protective, jelous family. If one person does something the whole band is affected. I cant even begin to explain what a band is and what i means to me. Without a band to write music for i think i would sink into the crowd and become a drone like everyone else in this town. A band gives me a feeling of hope, and gives me something to work for. It gives me the chance to express myself to everybody.
Im also rate confused about girls. I ve learnt far too much in a short space of time and its made me hate myself. Im useless with them lol. Although i like to think im a nice person i dont think i am. Its a fucking weird thing what girls do to you. But ive had to think for myself and make the right choice even though it might of been hard and twisted my head a bit, it'll work out better in the long run. Lifes about the choices you make. You dont EVER not have a choice. I wish i could get the thoughts in my head into words but it seems impossible tonight. I suppose you can always think if you have made the right choice. Maybe not. Ive learnt from experience that everything tends to unfold as it should and fits into place. It might only be for a short while but i guess your bound to make some choices without even knowing how big they may be. The smallest choice could make the biggest change.
Anyway im going off the point a bit and chatting on. Dunno if its even worth posting this blog and if it is im sure nobody will read it.
Suprisingly Owl City has been playing for 2 days straight and now it seems to sadden me rather than make me feel on top of the world. Weird how everything changes in 12 hours. Never thought id be in this weird situation yesterday.
id like to talk about some more conspiracies and theorys but im just not in the right frame of mind. i need some david ickes to cheer me up.
"Life is like a ride in an amusement park.
And when you go on it you think it's real, because that's how powerful our minds are.
And the ride goes up and down and around and around, it has thrills and chills and is very brightly colored. And it's very loud and it's fun for a while.
Some have been on the ride for a long time and they begin to question is this real or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered and they come back to us and they say:
"Hey, don't worry, don't be afraid ever - 'cause this is just a ride!"
and we kill those people.
"Shut him up.
I have a lot invested in this ride,
shut him up!
Look at my furrows of worry, look at my big bank account, and my family. This has to be real!"
...It's just a ride...
But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that - did you ever notice that - and let the demons run amok...
But it doesn't matter, because it's just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice - no effort, no work, no job, no savings of money.
Just a choice right now - between FEAR and LOVE."
that manages to cheer me up everytime. thank you for reading this if you did.
Seb
I have no idea where to start with this blog so i guess ill just spit it out. (i love how ive stopped using capitals already).
The last few weeks have been ridiculous. My band split up was my main concern. I lost my best friend and I really am not sure why. When you spend so much time with one person it gets a little tedious and it wares you out. Because you spend so much time with that person you stop seeing all the good points and start focusing on the bad points. A band is like a family or a girlfriend, boyfriend, relationship, marriage etc. Its one big overaly protective, jelous family. If one person does something the whole band is affected. I cant even begin to explain what a band is and what i means to me. Without a band to write music for i think i would sink into the crowd and become a drone like everyone else in this town. A band gives me a feeling of hope, and gives me something to work for. It gives me the chance to express myself to everybody.
Im also rate confused about girls. I ve learnt far too much in a short space of time and its made me hate myself. Im useless with them lol. Although i like to think im a nice person i dont think i am. Its a fucking weird thing what girls do to you. But ive had to think for myself and make the right choice even though it might of been hard and twisted my head a bit, it'll work out better in the long run. Lifes about the choices you make. You dont EVER not have a choice. I wish i could get the thoughts in my head into words but it seems impossible tonight. I suppose you can always think if you have made the right choice. Maybe not. Ive learnt from experience that everything tends to unfold as it should and fits into place. It might only be for a short while but i guess your bound to make some choices without even knowing how big they may be. The smallest choice could make the biggest change.
Anyway im going off the point a bit and chatting on. Dunno if its even worth posting this blog and if it is im sure nobody will read it.
Suprisingly Owl City has been playing for 2 days straight and now it seems to sadden me rather than make me feel on top of the world. Weird how everything changes in 12 hours. Never thought id be in this weird situation yesterday.
id like to talk about some more conspiracies and theorys but im just not in the right frame of mind. i need some david ickes to cheer me up.
"Life is like a ride in an amusement park.
And when you go on it you think it's real, because that's how powerful our minds are.
And the ride goes up and down and around and around, it has thrills and chills and is very brightly colored. And it's very loud and it's fun for a while.
Some have been on the ride for a long time and they begin to question is this real or is this just a ride? And other people have remembered and they come back to us and they say:
"Hey, don't worry, don't be afraid ever - 'cause this is just a ride!"
and we kill those people.
"Shut him up.
I have a lot invested in this ride,
shut him up!
Look at my furrows of worry, look at my big bank account, and my family. This has to be real!"
...It's just a ride...
But we always kill those good guys who try and tell us that - did you ever notice that - and let the demons run amok...
But it doesn't matter, because it's just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It's only a choice - no effort, no work, no job, no savings of money.
Just a choice right now - between FEAR and LOVE."
that manages to cheer me up everytime. thank you for reading this if you did.
Seb
Thursday, 28 May 2009
Sleepless Nights
Yo
Since December, I've found it VERY hard to sleep at night. I have no idea why, ive had my laptop for about a year and its never gave me an eccuse to stay up and doing nothing. Recently I've been thinking about why the fuck i stay up so late. I've spent the last 6 months with my best friend, every day. Straight I know but it kinda keeps me sane.
Maybe the reason I stay up so late is because I miss someone. Maybe not miss someone but just miss having their company and just the security and knowing they are mine. Maybe without a girlfriend I'm lost. I know thats weak but I think I'm weak. All i seem to do is refresh my facebook and endlessly look for bands on myspace and message bands etc. Its weird, when im laying in my room, i dont think "SHIT I MISS SOMEONE", i just lay there brainless. I dont talk to anybody online unless its Sammy cuz nobody ever has anything interesting to say or I have any interest in.
I know this post might be a bit more boring compared to my last few but I felt i needed to get things off my chest and try and find a reason to why i dont fucking sleep. I made an attempt of doing something creative whilst in such a weird state of mind and this is what i came up with
http://www.myspace.com/dreamscapesuk
I only managed to get one song done but for some reason it helps me sleep. Might attempt to make another one at some point.
Maybe I stay awake because I wanna be online if something good happens? Get a message off a band, promoter etc, i dunno.
If you have any theories or reasons why you stay up late it would be cool to have a chat (sebizhere@hotmail.com)
I dont know why i stay up so late because i hate it. I hate getting up at 4 in the afternoon and wasting the day and having nothing to do. Anyway...
Been speaking to a nice girl recently. Been finishing the new SLT cd. 7 or 8 tracks have been picked. Artists and photographers have been picked. Driving lessons are going good. Should hoefully be passed by august.
If you read all this, fair dooz and thank you. I'm sorry its changed a bit from the last blogs but i promise ill get onto writing some more theories and my views on things. Hopefully get some brains working
Its 3 40am and I know im not going to sleep till at least 5am. Might attempt anotehr blog later.
YOU STAY CLASSY SAN DIEGO!
Seb
Since December, I've found it VERY hard to sleep at night. I have no idea why, ive had my laptop for about a year and its never gave me an eccuse to stay up and doing nothing. Recently I've been thinking about why the fuck i stay up so late. I've spent the last 6 months with my best friend, every day. Straight I know but it kinda keeps me sane.
Maybe the reason I stay up so late is because I miss someone. Maybe not miss someone but just miss having their company and just the security and knowing they are mine. Maybe without a girlfriend I'm lost. I know thats weak but I think I'm weak. All i seem to do is refresh my facebook and endlessly look for bands on myspace and message bands etc. Its weird, when im laying in my room, i dont think "SHIT I MISS SOMEONE", i just lay there brainless. I dont talk to anybody online unless its Sammy cuz nobody ever has anything interesting to say or I have any interest in.
I know this post might be a bit more boring compared to my last few but I felt i needed to get things off my chest and try and find a reason to why i dont fucking sleep. I made an attempt of doing something creative whilst in such a weird state of mind and this is what i came up with
http://www.myspace.com/dreamscapesuk
I only managed to get one song done but for some reason it helps me sleep. Might attempt to make another one at some point.
Maybe I stay awake because I wanna be online if something good happens? Get a message off a band, promoter etc, i dunno.
If you have any theories or reasons why you stay up late it would be cool to have a chat (sebizhere@hotmail.com)
I dont know why i stay up so late because i hate it. I hate getting up at 4 in the afternoon and wasting the day and having nothing to do. Anyway...
Been speaking to a nice girl recently. Been finishing the new SLT cd. 7 or 8 tracks have been picked. Artists and photographers have been picked. Driving lessons are going good. Should hoefully be passed by august.
If you read all this, fair dooz and thank you. I'm sorry its changed a bit from the last blogs but i promise ill get onto writing some more theories and my views on things. Hopefully get some brains working
Its 3 40am and I know im not going to sleep till at least 5am. Might attempt anotehr blog later.
YOU STAY CLASSY SAN DIEGO!
Seb
Wednesday, 27 May 2009
The Bible Is a Zodialogical Text Used To Enslave
This blog is gonna take me a good while. I thought that I would be writing a blog about myself, but its turning out that I'm doing it just to inform people? Share knowledge maybe, I'm really not sure. Anyway ... I think I'll talk a bit about the bible. If your religious in any way or believe in God etc, I would advice you not to read it. I'm not trying to be big headed or "cool" or a twat in anyway. You dont have to read what im saying
THE SUN! (YES THE SUN IN THE SKY, THE BIG FIREBALL)
As far back as 10,000BC, history is abundant with writings of respect and adoration for this object. And it is simple to understand as every morning the sun would rise, bringing vision, warmth and security, saving man from the dark, predator filled night. Without The Sun, the cultures understood that their crops would not grow and life on the planet would not survive. For these reasons, it made The Sun the most adored object of all time. Like wise, they were very aware of the stars. The tracking of the stars allowed them to recognise and anticipate events, which occured over long periods of time, such as eclipes and full moons. They then put the star groups into what we know as constillations, such as orions belt etc etc
That is the zodiac. That image. One of the oldest conceptual images in human history. It reflects the sun as it passes through the 12 major constellations over the course of a year. Pices, tauras, cancer etc. As yo ucan see there are 12 animals. It also reflects the 12 months of the year, the 4 seasons ( you can see the cross dividing the animals into groups of 3.) and the soltices and equinoxs. The zodiac is a picture that basically shows that constellations of stars were depicted as figures, like birds and lions etc. In other words, early civilisations did not just follow the sun and stars they depicted them, with myths involving their movements and relationships. The sun with its life giving and saving qualitys was seen as the "Unseen creator" or "God"..."God's Sun"..."The Light of the World"..."The Saviour of Human Kind"....Ring any bells?
Like wise the 12 constellations represented the places of travel for God's Sun, and were identified by names usualling represeting elements of nature, that happened during that time. For example. Aquarius. The water bearer, who brings the spring rain
( google the pic or something, its shit uploading them on here!... actually ill find a link now .... http://www.josephinewall.com/zodiac/web_aquarius.jpg and ..... http://www.visualstatistics.net/East-West/The%20Age%20of%20Aquarius/Aquarius.jpg..... THERES LOADS!)
NEXT UP! GODS! ITS SO HARD DOING THIS ALL ON A BLOG!
Horus. Egyption God. 3000BC. ( http://doppelbock.net/blog/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/horus1.jpg) The Sun God of Egypt.
He is the Sun, depicted as a man and his life is myths involving the suns (THE SUN IN THE SKY) movements. From the ancient hyroglicphics in egypt, we know MUCH about the solar mesiah. For instance, Horus, being "The Sun" or "Light", had an enemy known as "Set". And set was the depiction of the darkness or night. ( HORUS VS SET = LIGHT VS DARK) Metphorically speaking, every morning, Horus would win the battle against Set, while in the evening Set would conquer Horus and send him into the underworld.
Dark VS Light, OR Good vs Evil is one of the biggest storys to mankind ever known. And is still expressed on many levels to this very day.
Broadly speaking, the story of Horus is as follows.....
Horus was born on Decemeber 25th
Born of the virgin Mary
His birth was accomponied by a star in the east
Which in turn 3 kings followed this star to adore the new born king
At the age of 12 he was a miracle teacher
At the age of 30 he was baptised by a figure known as "Annup" and thus began his ministry
Horus had 12 deciples he travled about with performing mircales such as healing the sick and walking on water
Horus was known by many names such as "The Truth", "The Lamb of God" "The Light", "The Good Shepard" and many more
After being betrayed by "Typhon" he was crucified
Buried for 3 days and rose again
These attributes of Horus, wether original or not, seem to relate to MANY other Mythological Gods from around the world e.g.
Attis of Frigia (NOT 100% ABOUT SPELLING OF FRIGIA)
Greece 1200BC
Born on dec 25th
born of a virgin
Crucified
dead for 3 days
ressurected
Krishna of India, 900BC
Born of the virgin Duvaci
Star in the east
Perfomed Miracles
Resurected
Dionysus of Greece - 500BC
Born of virgin
Decemember 25th
Travelling teacher who perfomed mircales such as turning water in wine
he was refered to as "King of Kings" "Alpha and Omega" and mnay others
And upon his death he rose again
Mithra of Persia - 1200BC
Born of a virgin on 25th dec
12 deciples
Performed mircales
Dead for 3 days
Rose again
He was also refered to as "The truth" :The Light" and many others LOL
Interesting the sacred day of worship for Mithra was Sunday
The fact of the matter is there are numerous saviours, from different periods, from all over the world which all have the same characteristics! The question is. WHY THESE ATTRIBUTES?
WHY THE VIRGIN BIRTH ON DECEMBER 25TH? WHY DEATH FOR 3 DAYS THEN RESURECTION? WHY 12 DECIPLES OR FOLLOWERS? To find out. Lets look at the most recent of the Solar Mesiahs
JESUS CHRIST!
Born on december 25th
Born of virgin mary
Signaled by star in the east which 3 kigns followed
Child teacher at 12
baptised at 30 by John The Baptist
and began his teachings
12 deciples
miracles
betrayed by judas
crucified
dead for 3 days
placed in tomb
resureceted
THIS IS WHERE SHIT GETS INTERESTING :D:D
FIRST OF ALL THE BIRTH SEQUENCE IS COMPLETLY ASTRONOMICAL!
The star in the east is known as "Sirius", the brightest star in the night sky, which on December 24th, alligns with the 3 brightest stars in Orions belt. These stars are called today what they were called in ancient times...THE 3 KINGS! And the 3 kings and Sirius all allign to the sunrise on DECEMBER 25TH! This is why the 3 kings "FOLLOW", the star in the east in order to locate the sunrise....THE BIRTH OF THE SUN
The virgin Mary is the constellation VIRGO. Also known as Virgo the Virgin. Virgo in Latin means Virgin. The ancient symbol for the conestellation virgo is the altered "M". This is why the name "Mary" and other virgin mothers, such as Buhdas mother "Maya" begin with an "M"...
Virgo is also refered to as "The House of Bread"and the representation of Virgo is a women holding a piece of wheat. This house of bread and its symbol of wheat, represents August and September, the time of harvest. In turn "BETHLEHEM" LITERALLY TRANSLATES TO HOUSE OF BREAD!
Therefore Bethelem is a reference to the constelation Virgo... a place in the sky... not on earth.
There is another interesting thing that happens around December 25th. Or "the winter solstice".
From the summer solstice to the winter solstice, the days become shorter and colder. The shorting of the days symbolise death to the ancients as crops can not grow etc. It was the death of The Sun (IN THE SKY) On december 22nd, the sun reaches its lowest point... WAIT FOR THIS... THE SUN STOPS MOVING FOR 3 DAYS...what is 2 add 3? = 5?
December 22nd... 3 days later... December 25th!
The sun stays in the location of the southern cross, also known as "The Crux", (CRUCIFIX! A CONSTELLATION OF STARS TO MAKE A CROSS) constellation.
On december 25th, the sun begins to move back. It moves 1 degree north in stead of south. The days become longer and warmth and spring. And thus it is said. The sun died for 3 days, died on the cross and was ressurected.
This is why Jesus and numerous other sun gods share the crucifixion, death for 3 days, birth of a virgin and ressurection attributes. It is the sun's (IN THE SKY) transition period before it shifts its direction into the northern hemosphere, bringing life. However they do not celebrate the life of the sun until the spring equinox or "Easter". This is because at the spring equinox, the sun official overpowers the darkness, as day time there after becomes longer in moderation than the night. And the life on the planet (crops, flowers etc) is born
I hope that makes sense to people.
I'll probably start working on the 2nd part after a fag and some dinner.
Enjoy!
Seb
THE SUN! (YES THE SUN IN THE SKY, THE BIG FIREBALL)
As far back as 10,000BC, history is abundant with writings of respect and adoration for this object. And it is simple to understand as every morning the sun would rise, bringing vision, warmth and security, saving man from the dark, predator filled night. Without The Sun, the cultures understood that their crops would not grow and life on the planet would not survive. For these reasons, it made The Sun the most adored object of all time. Like wise, they were very aware of the stars. The tracking of the stars allowed them to recognise and anticipate events, which occured over long periods of time, such as eclipes and full moons. They then put the star groups into what we know as constillations, such as orions belt etc etc
That is the zodiac. That image. One of the oldest conceptual images in human history. It reflects the sun as it passes through the 12 major constellations over the course of a year. Pices, tauras, cancer etc. As yo ucan see there are 12 animals. It also reflects the 12 months of the year, the 4 seasons ( you can see the cross dividing the animals into groups of 3.) and the soltices and equinoxs. The zodiac is a picture that basically shows that constellations of stars were depicted as figures, like birds and lions etc. In other words, early civilisations did not just follow the sun and stars they depicted them, with myths involving their movements and relationships. The sun with its life giving and saving qualitys was seen as the "Unseen creator" or "God"..."God's Sun"..."The Light of the World"..."The Saviour of Human Kind"....Ring any bells?Like wise the 12 constellations represented the places of travel for God's Sun, and were identified by names usualling represeting elements of nature, that happened during that time. For example. Aquarius. The water bearer, who brings the spring rain
( google the pic or something, its shit uploading them on here!... actually ill find a link now .... http://www.josephinewall.com/zodiac/web_aquarius.jpg and ..... http://www.visualstatistics.net/East-West/The%20Age%20of%20Aquarius/Aquarius.jpg..... THERES LOADS!)
NEXT UP! GODS! ITS SO HARD DOING THIS ALL ON A BLOG!
Horus. Egyption God. 3000BC. ( http://doppelbock.net/blog/wp-content/uploads/2009/03/horus1.jpg) The Sun God of Egypt.
He is the Sun, depicted as a man and his life is myths involving the suns (THE SUN IN THE SKY) movements. From the ancient hyroglicphics in egypt, we know MUCH about the solar mesiah. For instance, Horus, being "The Sun" or "Light", had an enemy known as "Set". And set was the depiction of the darkness or night. ( HORUS VS SET = LIGHT VS DARK) Metphorically speaking, every morning, Horus would win the battle against Set, while in the evening Set would conquer Horus and send him into the underworld.
Dark VS Light, OR Good vs Evil is one of the biggest storys to mankind ever known. And is still expressed on many levels to this very day.
Broadly speaking, the story of Horus is as follows.....
Horus was born on Decemeber 25th
Born of the virgin Mary
His birth was accomponied by a star in the east
Which in turn 3 kings followed this star to adore the new born king
At the age of 12 he was a miracle teacher
At the age of 30 he was baptised by a figure known as "Annup" and thus began his ministry
Horus had 12 deciples he travled about with performing mircales such as healing the sick and walking on water
Horus was known by many names such as "The Truth", "The Lamb of God" "The Light", "The Good Shepard" and many more
After being betrayed by "Typhon" he was crucified
Buried for 3 days and rose again
These attributes of Horus, wether original or not, seem to relate to MANY other Mythological Gods from around the world e.g.
Attis of Frigia (NOT 100% ABOUT SPELLING OF FRIGIA)
Greece 1200BC
Born on dec 25th
born of a virgin
Crucified
dead for 3 days
ressurected
Krishna of India, 900BC
Born of the virgin Duvaci
Star in the east
Perfomed Miracles
Resurected
Dionysus of Greece - 500BC
Born of virgin
Decemember 25th
Travelling teacher who perfomed mircales such as turning water in wine
he was refered to as "King of Kings" "Alpha and Omega" and mnay others
And upon his death he rose again
Mithra of Persia - 1200BC
Born of a virgin on 25th dec
12 deciples
Performed mircales
Dead for 3 days
Rose again
He was also refered to as "The truth" :The Light" and many others LOL
Interesting the sacred day of worship for Mithra was Sunday
The fact of the matter is there are numerous saviours, from different periods, from all over the world which all have the same characteristics! The question is. WHY THESE ATTRIBUTES?
WHY THE VIRGIN BIRTH ON DECEMBER 25TH? WHY DEATH FOR 3 DAYS THEN RESURECTION? WHY 12 DECIPLES OR FOLLOWERS? To find out. Lets look at the most recent of the Solar Mesiahs
JESUS CHRIST!
Born on december 25th
Born of virgin mary
Signaled by star in the east which 3 kigns followed
Child teacher at 12
baptised at 30 by John The Baptist
and began his teachings
12 deciples
miracles
betrayed by judas
crucified
dead for 3 days
placed in tomb
resureceted
THIS IS WHERE SHIT GETS INTERESTING :D:D
FIRST OF ALL THE BIRTH SEQUENCE IS COMPLETLY ASTRONOMICAL!
The star in the east is known as "Sirius", the brightest star in the night sky, which on December 24th, alligns with the 3 brightest stars in Orions belt. These stars are called today what they were called in ancient times...THE 3 KINGS! And the 3 kings and Sirius all allign to the sunrise on DECEMBER 25TH! This is why the 3 kings "FOLLOW", the star in the east in order to locate the sunrise....THE BIRTH OF THE SUN
The virgin Mary is the constellation VIRGO. Also known as Virgo the Virgin. Virgo in Latin means Virgin. The ancient symbol for the conestellation virgo is the altered "M". This is why the name "Mary" and other virgin mothers, such as Buhdas mother "Maya" begin with an "M"...
Virgo is also refered to as "The House of Bread"and the representation of Virgo is a women holding a piece of wheat. This house of bread and its symbol of wheat, represents August and September, the time of harvest. In turn "BETHLEHEM" LITERALLY TRANSLATES TO HOUSE OF BREAD!
Therefore Bethelem is a reference to the constelation Virgo... a place in the sky... not on earth.
There is another interesting thing that happens around December 25th. Or "the winter solstice".
From the summer solstice to the winter solstice, the days become shorter and colder. The shorting of the days symbolise death to the ancients as crops can not grow etc. It was the death of The Sun (IN THE SKY) On december 22nd, the sun reaches its lowest point... WAIT FOR THIS... THE SUN STOPS MOVING FOR 3 DAYS...what is 2 add 3? = 5?
December 22nd... 3 days later... December 25th!
The sun stays in the location of the southern cross, also known as "The Crux", (CRUCIFIX! A CONSTELLATION OF STARS TO MAKE A CROSS) constellation.
On december 25th, the sun begins to move back. It moves 1 degree north in stead of south. The days become longer and warmth and spring. And thus it is said. The sun died for 3 days, died on the cross and was ressurected.
This is why Jesus and numerous other sun gods share the crucifixion, death for 3 days, birth of a virgin and ressurection attributes. It is the sun's (IN THE SKY) transition period before it shifts its direction into the northern hemosphere, bringing life. However they do not celebrate the life of the sun until the spring equinox or "Easter". This is because at the spring equinox, the sun official overpowers the darkness, as day time there after becomes longer in moderation than the night. And the life on the planet (crops, flowers etc) is born
I hope that makes sense to people.
I'll probably start working on the 2nd part after a fag and some dinner.
Enjoy!
Seb
Ridiculously Lame Pt.2 Being Catholic, Religion and Aliens.
I decided to carry on with this as I'm so bored.
Basically, I was bought up in a catholic household. I went to a christian playgroup, catholic primary school and catholic high school. Towards the last 2/3 years in high school I started to look back into conspiracy theories, my brother showed all the 9/11 stuff when I was in like yer 8 but I really didn't understand it too much, I was too busy chasing girls or buying a quarter with Andy. But yeh, towards my last 2 years I started back up on it and to be honest I wish I didn't. All this conspiracy stuff has fucked my head up. A lot. I started to look into it all again because I didn't feel "God" was there for me. I had wasted years of my life praying to something, or someone, that was not there. To me, religion was just not working for me. Its just a fix. The catholic church takes in more money than any other corporation or industry in the world. Isn't that a bit worrying? Think about it this way, "God" is all knowing, all powerful, all seeing, all loving etc etc but for some reason he just can't handle money? And amazingly, religion has actually convinced people that there is a man living in the sky that watches everything you do, and he has a set of 10 rules he wants you to follow, and if you dont follow these rules you will go to hell and burn and rot and suffer.... BUT HE LOVES YOU! LOL!
Another thing that pisses me off about religion and catholics etc is that they DO NOT listen to any one else. The catholic and christian religion is FORCED upon you. You have no choice basically, I'm sure most of you have seen those people in town offering you the love of the lord and how he will save you and how he offers redemtion? Well I'll use an example that happened to me a few weeks ago. I was walking through town and some guy was handing shitty booklets about Jesus out. He offered me one and i politely refused. The next thing I heard was "IF YOU DIE TONIGHT WHERE WILL YOU GO" I was SOOO offended and fucking pissed off. What if little kids were around? It was alright though, Tom called him a cunt and told him to fuck off. Basically what I'm trying to say is, I think religion is a VERY scary thing. Its like fucking Hitler. He used fear as his method in controlling people, and thats exactly what the religious insititions of the world are doing. I find it VERY hard for me to rant over the internet like this. I need a proper debate with somebody, or conversation or whatever.
What I'm trying to say is, religion was not for me. Well... It was. But after reading into the other side of the story, my belief system was destroyed. I was a mess for months, and at 13/14. Thats not good. I use to stay up all night reading these theories, which now, make sense to me. I now have my own belief system which I am 100% happy with. Obviously there is things I do not understand and things I do not want to understand but I am happy. And nobody has the right to try and criticize me. Another reason why I'm not fond of religion. I seem to rant on about it alot. But I would never get angry with a person who is christian or whatever. Its not my place to say anything. If they are happy then they should be. It is only when they would try and force shit on me and tell me I am wrong, that I would kick off.
I'm not sure if this is making sense. To me or to anyone. But if you got this far. Thank you.
Everything I have read from reptilian blood lines ruling the earth to the end of the world to the corruption of government, all makes sense to me and all links in together. Seems crazy but if you have a chat with me I would gladly go into as much detail as I can.
But right now, I've realised negativity is not the way forward and from negativity comes more negativity. Every feeling has a frequencie. Sounds crazy but its another theory I have read and it makes sense to me. HATE has its own frequencie. So the more you hate the more of that frequencie you give off into the world and into the atmosphere. Therefore there is more chance you are likely to recieve more hate and negative. And its exactly the same for LOVE. If you give off love and positive frequencies, you are more likely to recieve that freqeuncie. This is why I try and stay positive. At the end of the day, maybe the saying "Be the change you wish to see in the world", sums it up? I'm not sure. It makes sense to me. In a world of hate, it doesnt need any more, so i try not to get too worked up and so i stay happy. Maybe thats another reason I stopped listening to "Metal" Music? That and I find most of it today, REALLY SHITE! Annotations of an Autopsy, Trigger the Bloodshed, Dreaming in Oceans, Eternal Lord etc. Really talentless. Anyway, I wont go off the point and bitch about metal.
After I decided to stop reading up on the negative side of the world, and how shit everything is, I burried my head in stand ( exactly what "they" want us to do) but I couldnt help it. I was too scared and I have a very large family. The last thing I wanted to think about was how shit everything was and how everything is going down hill. I started to look into ancient civiliastions after reading about how a reptillian race came down from the stars and interbred with humans and formed cross breeds, which still control the world today in the form of presidents, priministors, bank owners etc etc. But I got really into Egypt. I know its not the place where it all started but it amazes me. The pyramids really. How they were NOT BUILT BY HUMANS. But from a race from another planet. Some say it was the reptillian race, known as the Annunaki and they came down to give us new technology and share their knowledge with us, others says it was "the watchers" or "the greys". Those who monitor the planet and the human race and our development. Either way, its AMAZING.
I have countless hours of reading material, and documentaries about the great pyramids which i cant put into words so if you want to have a chat, let me know!
Some facts about why the pyramids were not built by men;
Anyway, I'm sure I will carry on with this at some point later tonight or tomorrow or whatever.
If you read this far THANK YOU. I think you might know me a little better. I dont want to come across as "fucked up" or "weird" because im really not lol KNOWLEDGE IS POWER. Thats anotehr reason i feel i need to leave Wrexham. Most people are clueless sheep. They have no ambition or drive in life. Its the same. Born, School, Work, Die. Thats not for me. AND IT WILL NOT EVER BE LIKE THAT.
I dont know if I should say sorry if i scared anyone, or if they think less of me. Nah. I'm not sorry if you think less of me or think im weird. If so, your VERY small minded and I dont think i would like to accociate myself with you to put it bluntly. Only when you TRULEY know me you can call me weird.
Im glad if this has interested anyone or made people think. Having a think about everything is always sweet.
YOU STAY CLASSY SAN DIEGO!
Seb
Basically, I was bought up in a catholic household. I went to a christian playgroup, catholic primary school and catholic high school. Towards the last 2/3 years in high school I started to look back into conspiracy theories, my brother showed all the 9/11 stuff when I was in like yer 8 but I really didn't understand it too much, I was too busy chasing girls or buying a quarter with Andy. But yeh, towards my last 2 years I started back up on it and to be honest I wish I didn't. All this conspiracy stuff has fucked my head up. A lot. I started to look into it all again because I didn't feel "God" was there for me. I had wasted years of my life praying to something, or someone, that was not there. To me, religion was just not working for me. Its just a fix. The catholic church takes in more money than any other corporation or industry in the world. Isn't that a bit worrying? Think about it this way, "God" is all knowing, all powerful, all seeing, all loving etc etc but for some reason he just can't handle money? And amazingly, religion has actually convinced people that there is a man living in the sky that watches everything you do, and he has a set of 10 rules he wants you to follow, and if you dont follow these rules you will go to hell and burn and rot and suffer.... BUT HE LOVES YOU! LOL!
Another thing that pisses me off about religion and catholics etc is that they DO NOT listen to any one else. The catholic and christian religion is FORCED upon you. You have no choice basically, I'm sure most of you have seen those people in town offering you the love of the lord and how he will save you and how he offers redemtion? Well I'll use an example that happened to me a few weeks ago. I was walking through town and some guy was handing shitty booklets about Jesus out. He offered me one and i politely refused. The next thing I heard was "IF YOU DIE TONIGHT WHERE WILL YOU GO" I was SOOO offended and fucking pissed off. What if little kids were around? It was alright though, Tom called him a cunt and told him to fuck off. Basically what I'm trying to say is, I think religion is a VERY scary thing. Its like fucking Hitler. He used fear as his method in controlling people, and thats exactly what the religious insititions of the world are doing. I find it VERY hard for me to rant over the internet like this. I need a proper debate with somebody, or conversation or whatever.
What I'm trying to say is, religion was not for me. Well... It was. But after reading into the other side of the story, my belief system was destroyed. I was a mess for months, and at 13/14. Thats not good. I use to stay up all night reading these theories, which now, make sense to me. I now have my own belief system which I am 100% happy with. Obviously there is things I do not understand and things I do not want to understand but I am happy. And nobody has the right to try and criticize me. Another reason why I'm not fond of religion. I seem to rant on about it alot. But I would never get angry with a person who is christian or whatever. Its not my place to say anything. If they are happy then they should be. It is only when they would try and force shit on me and tell me I am wrong, that I would kick off.
I'm not sure if this is making sense. To me or to anyone. But if you got this far. Thank you.
Everything I have read from reptilian blood lines ruling the earth to the end of the world to the corruption of government, all makes sense to me and all links in together. Seems crazy but if you have a chat with me I would gladly go into as much detail as I can.
But right now, I've realised negativity is not the way forward and from negativity comes more negativity. Every feeling has a frequencie. Sounds crazy but its another theory I have read and it makes sense to me. HATE has its own frequencie. So the more you hate the more of that frequencie you give off into the world and into the atmosphere. Therefore there is more chance you are likely to recieve more hate and negative. And its exactly the same for LOVE. If you give off love and positive frequencies, you are more likely to recieve that freqeuncie. This is why I try and stay positive. At the end of the day, maybe the saying "Be the change you wish to see in the world", sums it up? I'm not sure. It makes sense to me. In a world of hate, it doesnt need any more, so i try not to get too worked up and so i stay happy. Maybe thats another reason I stopped listening to "Metal" Music? That and I find most of it today, REALLY SHITE! Annotations of an Autopsy, Trigger the Bloodshed, Dreaming in Oceans, Eternal Lord etc. Really talentless. Anyway, I wont go off the point and bitch about metal.
After I decided to stop reading up on the negative side of the world, and how shit everything is, I burried my head in stand ( exactly what "they" want us to do) but I couldnt help it. I was too scared and I have a very large family. The last thing I wanted to think about was how shit everything was and how everything is going down hill. I started to look into ancient civiliastions after reading about how a reptillian race came down from the stars and interbred with humans and formed cross breeds, which still control the world today in the form of presidents, priministors, bank owners etc etc. But I got really into Egypt. I know its not the place where it all started but it amazes me. The pyramids really. How they were NOT BUILT BY HUMANS. But from a race from another planet. Some say it was the reptillian race, known as the Annunaki and they came down to give us new technology and share their knowledge with us, others says it was "the watchers" or "the greys". Those who monitor the planet and the human race and our development. Either way, its AMAZING.
I have countless hours of reading material, and documentaries about the great pyramids which i cant put into words so if you want to have a chat, let me know!
Some facts about why the pyramids were not built by men;
- Modern structures today sink into the ground at LEAST 4 inches. The great pyramids have sunk but 0.9 of an inch into the ground. One theorie is they were built on top of one the very peaks of one of the tallest underground mountains in the world. You tell me, do you think that however many 1000s of years ago, man had the technology and knowledge to pin point an exact point of an underground mountain. Nah.
- There is two points in the world where underground plates alighn to point to TRUE NORTH. One of them is in the middle of the atlantic ocean and the other is where the pyramids are. They line up to true north.
- I could go on but I'm getting VERY TIRED!
Anyway, I'm sure I will carry on with this at some point later tonight or tomorrow or whatever.
If you read this far THANK YOU. I think you might know me a little better. I dont want to come across as "fucked up" or "weird" because im really not lol KNOWLEDGE IS POWER. Thats anotehr reason i feel i need to leave Wrexham. Most people are clueless sheep. They have no ambition or drive in life. Its the same. Born, School, Work, Die. Thats not for me. AND IT WILL NOT EVER BE LIKE THAT.
I dont know if I should say sorry if i scared anyone, or if they think less of me. Nah. I'm not sorry if you think less of me or think im weird. If so, your VERY small minded and I dont think i would like to accociate myself with you to put it bluntly. Only when you TRULEY know me you can call me weird.
Im glad if this has interested anyone or made people think. Having a think about everything is always sweet.
YOU STAY CLASSY SAN DIEGO!
Seb
Ridiculously Lame Pt.1
Yeh, I decided to start a blog. Not to impress anyone or to jump on the bandwagon, just because I thought it might help me get a few things off my chest without having to talk to anybody. Kind of sad I'm talking to myself then really?
I'm not really sure to where to start with this. I could start by telling you a bit about myself.
I'm 17. I live with my Mum, Dad and little brother. I have a big brother and a big sister with 4 kids (5th on the way). I've been stuck in this shit hole of a town for 17 years and over the last year I've wanted to leave.
I study Music Technology in college. Sounds cliche but music is my life. I'm in a band called Smile Like Texas (www.myspace.com/smileliketexasuk) its the only thing I'm proud of in life right now, everything I have has been put into it. My money, my time, my college work. We have only been together 6 months but everythings starting to take off. Talks of sponserships and labels etc. Nothings confirmed though.
Like most people reading this (maybe not all) I spend most of my time on my computer. I try to get out as much as possible but its hard when your stuck in a shit town. I'm either networking on facebook or myspace. But the main amount of time goes into writing music with my best. I use logic pro 8, with 100s of plugins and samples. I have my big brother to thank for everything I have done to do with music. He got my into early punk rock like Bad Religion, Pennywise, NOFX, Millencolin and stuff like that. He use to buy me a punk o rama album for every christmas and birthday and I managed to get most of them. After that I developed my own musicical taste. Bottom line is Blink 182 changed my life. After hearing Whats My Age Again and All The Small Things, I decided to blag my mum to buy me Enema of the State. Went to tesco, cover the parental advisory warning with the price tag and cained it for about 3 years. Still have my phases of caining it now.
I think I be blabbing on a bit for one blog so I'll carry on with my life story another time. If you read this far. Thank you and I'm gratefull.
Seb
I'm not really sure to where to start with this. I could start by telling you a bit about myself.
I'm 17. I live with my Mum, Dad and little brother. I have a big brother and a big sister with 4 kids (5th on the way). I've been stuck in this shit hole of a town for 17 years and over the last year I've wanted to leave.
I study Music Technology in college. Sounds cliche but music is my life. I'm in a band called Smile Like Texas (www.myspace.com/smileliketexasuk) its the only thing I'm proud of in life right now, everything I have has been put into it. My money, my time, my college work. We have only been together 6 months but everythings starting to take off. Talks of sponserships and labels etc. Nothings confirmed though.
Like most people reading this (maybe not all) I spend most of my time on my computer. I try to get out as much as possible but its hard when your stuck in a shit town. I'm either networking on facebook or myspace. But the main amount of time goes into writing music with my best. I use logic pro 8, with 100s of plugins and samples. I have my big brother to thank for everything I have done to do with music. He got my into early punk rock like Bad Religion, Pennywise, NOFX, Millencolin and stuff like that. He use to buy me a punk o rama album for every christmas and birthday and I managed to get most of them. After that I developed my own musicical taste. Bottom line is Blink 182 changed my life. After hearing Whats My Age Again and All The Small Things, I decided to blag my mum to buy me Enema of the State. Went to tesco, cover the parental advisory warning with the price tag and cained it for about 3 years. Still have my phases of caining it now.
I think I be blabbing on a bit for one blog so I'll carry on with my life story another time. If you read this far. Thank you and I'm gratefull.
Seb
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